For Him

Whats funny is that she never fell in love with you, it just happened and she just knew. But she didn't know until now. Have you ever tried to make yourself believe that the feelings you have are false, and they are just feelings and that they will fade? She did with you. Have you tried to focus more on the idea that you will never be instead of manning up and communicating what is going on inside? But how could you? Heartbreak after heartbreak how can one even know what love is after giving so much of their heart to so many different people? She was young, she was naive, but she knew that you became the best part of her. She tells people “you need a few heartbreaks to find the right one”, but for her she had the right one there all along. She was just too blind. She wrestles with the idea of losing someone who is so close to her, the one person that she feels nothing but safe with. She's afraid of losing that person who she will spend every waking moment fighting with just because she knows at the end of any fight they will be okay. She is afraid that their forever will end when they go their separate ways, but she stays up late praying that their forever will be together. She loves him.