I spend my days lying awake
I spend my days praying that you'll answer
Answer everything that I want to know
But I'm trapped
I'm scared to ask you all the questions I have
I know if I ask you something you'll tell me
But I also know that you might tell me what I want to hear
I know that you can't give me what I want but I want what ever you can give
I spend my days hoping that God will answer me and show me what I want to know
I don't want to hear the news from you
But you give me silence so that's news, Right?
God also gives me silence, does that mean I'm so far away from him I'll never know
Does it mean that I'm falling in love with you and I don't need to be
The answer to all of my questions are answers in their own but I don't want to face the truth
I want to scream at the top of my lungs I love you
I want you to know that I'm scared of love
I gave so much of myself away I feel like if I do it again it'll be a waste
I don't want to waste my love
I want to give all the love I have to you to the one person I want to spend my forever with
I want to give my love to the man I want my children to call dad
I want to give my love to the man my father gets to walk me down the aisle to
Why can't you see the pain in my eyes when you're with me
Do you not care
Do you not see me
Why do I try so hard for you to see this pain that everyone around can see but to you I seem happy
What can I do
What is it that captures your heart
I spend my days, waiting,
Waiting for you to see me.
