Just Pick One Already

Today is the day, the day that I show the world the real me. But what if, what if they are disappointed. What if the people around me no longer accept me for who I am on the inside? What if the person who I see in the mirror is the one person I am most disappointed with? What will people say then? But that person thats the one that they love, thats the one that girls adore and boys drool over. What about me guys, what about the person who actually has to wake up and go though out this day to day life with? What do I have to offer you but this mask that I put on for you and myself? I don’t know me anymore. I lost who I was somewhere a long the line. I lost the love I once saw as I stared in the mirror. Now guys what I see in the mirror is just a ghost a person inside of me telling me to take the mask off and show the world. But now I cant do that because THE WORLD, now thats a big place and if I'm not accepted if I don't fit in anywhere then who am I? But still even with these masks I still do not fit in. I’m a different me around every different group of people, and if I am being real I'm tired. I’m tired of changing who I am for everyone because I continue to lose who I see myself becoming because I’m changing so fast. But what if, what if I decide to show the world the real me? What if they don't like me? Can I still live? Today is the day, the day that I take the risk. Im leaving the masks at the door. Today world I am, ME. If you do not love me for who I am thats fine. I have found a Man who loves me for me. He knew me before I knew myself. He calls me His, beautiful, and that I’m wonderfully made. So world I am who He has made me to be, Strong and His. Today is the day that I pick the mask that He gave me, my forever mask. I will wear it with pure joy because that is what I have fond while wearing this mask. Today I am chosen.